Home Sweet Home

"There is a race, your at the starting line getting into your car but before you do you see a friend who is also in the race, and you call out to them "Good Luck Friend!" the reply with a wave and "Same to you!" 
Now if you really wanted to win, lets say that you have been dreaming of this day for years! This is all you ever wanted to do! Is the "Good Luck" to that friend really sincere? Can your heart want to win but also want your friend to win as well?
And lets say they Won! Can you really be happy for them, when you wanted to win so much?
If you can't be happy for them, and you did not actually mean the "Good Luck"...Now that they have won, can you move on? Can you believe that it happened for a reason? and knowing that God has it planned like that?
And even harder, Will you be able to Congratulate them, truly? and still be Friends?
Or are your wants, desires and Pride in the way? Are you going to be a sorry loser for the rest of your life?"

Hi! You know those signs that say "Home Sweet Home"?
Lately, My Home has not been that sweet to me! When i am home, i would rather be anywhere else...
I have a amazing family, I love them!  *Sigh*
I want my home to be a sweet place, somewhere were you feel comfortable and carefree....not a place you feel like you have to hide.
I want to move out....move on..

I need to go to bed! Bye

I Need You
By Relient K

I've dug up miles and miles of sand Searching for something I can't see And I've just got bruised and battered hands And a brand new void inside of me Complete with walls I did create From all the earth that I've displaced A mess that I have made from what I've just let pile and pile up I have not been abandoned, no I have not been Deserted and I have not been forgotten I need you I need you here I need you now I need security somehow I need you Like you would not believe You're the only thing I want Cause you're everything I need Explore the cave that is my chest A torch reveals there's nothing left Your whispers echo off the walls And you can hear my distant calls The voice of who I used to be Screaming out "someone, someone please Please shine a light into the black Wade through the depths and bring me back I have not been abandoned, no I have not been Deserted and I have not been forgotten I need you I need you here I need you now I need security somehow I need you Like you would not believe You're the only thing I want Cause you're everything I need When my hopes seem to dangle Somewhere just beyond my reach You say you've heard my prayers And read my words there on the beach I need you I need you here I need you now I need security somehow I need you Like you would not believe You're the only thing I want Cause you're everything I need

In Christ
MSB